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College Kids and Outsiders

There was a reason I began this post in September of last year and didn’t finish it.

I was afraid.

I didn’t know how it would go. I had felt God prompting me to get involved with the local college in my area when I first moved to this town. I wanted to go prayer walk on campus when I was bored. I just never did. Then we got to play soccer there and meet some of the folks who frequent it’s paths. Then we went to a student experimental theater production about what it means to be human that was really well done but ended in meaninglessness. Then a student committed suicide. And I know I was being disobedient out of fear.

Fear that I wasn’t really supposed to be involved. Fear of rejection. Fear of suspicion of wrong motives; what’s this outsider doing on our campus? Fear of failing. Fear of being ineffective. Fear of butting in. Fear of wanting to do something out of pride or self-improvement – not out of love. Fear of partnering with a certain ministry I wasn’t sure I liked.

I e-mailed the ministry leader. We’re good friends now – our whole families. I wasn’t sure how I should be involved, so we decided I should try coming to the weekly meetings. We went early and prayed – it was an awesome time of prayer – and I left the first meeting having started some relationships and feeling used by God. The second meeting started the same way… but in the time of activity transition I got lost in the flow and ended up going home, confused and dejected. I had asked God to use me. I had the right motives. The Spirit was working. What was going on?

I didn’t have faith. I went back, but this time I decided I was going to act on the truth that God would be at work, He would move with power, and I would be a part of it. God was at work whether I was there or not, whether I believed or not. I had to have faith that this was where God wanted me to be, and I would be there whether I felt awkward, out of place, intrusive, judged, or not. It’s always hard to break into an established community when you don’t fit the bill of what a community member should look like. But when God has called you to do something, you’d better do it, and you’d better believe He wants you there and He’ll use you.

This semester, I’ve already had two amazing conversations and God willing, will be leading a Bible Study called Life to the Full. May God bring those He wants on this journey and continue to give me the faith and courage to do what He has prompted me by His Spirit to do.

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Shoveling

After more deliberation – and I’m pretty sure the Spirit’s prompting – I’m not going to let Beth Moore do the teaching for me. I’m going to dig deep and do this thing myself.

That sounds awfully selfish and elitist, doesn’t it.

I knew I was sort of relying on this new Bible Study I found to do the dirty work for me – help someone else grow in their knowledge and relationship with God. I will let the study teach and grow me, but use it only as an aide in my teaching. Now I have this awesome opportunity to dig deep and be led by the Spirit into more truth, more growth, and more… just everything, including frustration. I foresee this being very hard; the only way I can think to do this so I don’t miss anything is do find all the verses in the Bible that talk about the Holy Spirit and study them in context. And I really have no clue how to organize all this information. I feel like I’m going to be writing a huge research paper, and what I need to be culminating in is a Bible study. Maybe my friend I’m sharing this with can just come along for the ride; this project won’t be done in 2 weeks 🙂

But the biggest thing I want out of this is real, live application. I was suddenly reminded of the old worship song by Michael W. Smith,

“More love, more power
More of You in my life
More love, more power
More of You in my life.

I will worship You with all of my heart
And I will worship You with all of my mind
And I will worship You with all of my strength
For you are my Lord
You are my Lord.

More faith, more passion
More of You in my life
More faith, more passion
More of You in my life.”

That’s not all the lyrics, but that’s all I really want out of this study. For me, but mostly for her and anyone else I come in contact with.

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